ScoutBeastly

I almost have forgotten how much i have felt alone, but suddenly i remembered how I used to feel and hopefully i can feel wanted these days, even as a mom now...i still feel hopeless. and that's why I'm back, i remerbered how great this place was for me , can't wait to see if it was worth it...hopefully. not too sure these days.

So I'm sad to say I've lost a good set of friends..however this past year. I've felt extremely stressed and had to almost go back to the hospital because i felt as  if i was a danger. However i was able to get the help i need when turning 18. Their actions had really hurt but i understand why they did it..they had no intentions to hurt me. They just wanted what they had in the past..and by no means is that wrong. Though it was wrong for them not hear me out..not fully understand the amount of stress they put me through, and i could no longer to feel useless and not important. So i had to cut them out of my life in order to improve my mental h

So I'm a senior , and it will be the last year of high school. However I'm just unsure with a lot of things. I have lost a lot of passion over the years in my art, and my final year ...I have AP Art..but I just don't feel like I got the energy to do it. So what I was considering , is to drop the class and hope to finish high school . It is very depressing but I don't think I ever had the confidence to make my art a career ...so I'll just make it a basic hobby ...I just know my family won't understand and won't react well, that's what I am terrified for. Anyways I will try to update you on my thoughts and see how it will go.